This Spring the rut I was standing in quickly filled with
water as the deluge of rain poured down.
I found myself alternating between slipping in the mud and being mired
in the goopy mess. The rocks, no longer
embedded in the packed earth, scraped the tender soles of my feet. The rushing water threatened to unbalance
me.
I could no longer ignore that that standing in the rut no
longer served me. As I flayed around, I
admitted to myself that one small change would provide the impetus to move me
from this place of angst into a place of possibility.
After eight years in the same place, I was resistant to
move. Yet I recognized that being in the
same place for those long years had contributed to my complacent, fear-filled
space. Calling upon courage and curious
daring, I gave notice to vacate my apartment.
Change was triggered. I found
myself in the midst of chaos — that period of transition between order and
disorder.
Although chaos is uncomfortable and scary, it is also filled
with limitless possibilities of growth and transformation. Within the chaos I could identify the
fractals, those never ending patterns, of my life. Once identified, I could discern their contributions
to my life. Some life patterns are
beneficial while others create discord.
Instead of focusing on the discord wrought, I gently reminded myself
that with clarity comes the choice of transformation. I could choose to create new fractals in my
life.
This choice of finding another place to live offered the
impetus to push me from my rut and discover a new way. The new path presents opportunities to create
new, more beneficial ruts. (Because not
all ruts are bad!) I have a blank field upon which to create new, life-serving
fractals.
What fractals do you need to release and recreate?
Namaste,
Vanessa
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