Eighteen years ago I was looking forward to a most
auspicious event — the birth of my son Merlin. That little boy who for months
had blown bubbles when I lie in a position he did not like. Of course, he had
no toys to play with, so he squeezed his umbilical cord! The last thirteen
weeks of that pregnancy were quite eventful! Through the laughter and the fears
I suspected that being a mother to Merlin would be anything but boring. He
would call me to be my creative, contemplative best!
When we reach a certain age, we look back upon our life.
Almost two decades ago, I took on a job for which I was unprepared. In many
ways the two of us, my son and I, grew together. He challenged me to be my best
while I encouraged the same of him. In those moments that we connected through
laughter and love, we were in balance…a precious family of two.
Eighteen years have flown past much like Sonic the Hedgehog
(remember him? J)
I have grown deeper in my contemplative, compassionate spirit. I have watched
as Merlin first discovered and then deepened his. He gently, often without
words, reveals the cracks in my spirit. Only when the cracks are revealed, am I
aware of the light of the Sacred that shines through those cracks. We both
rejoice when those cracks fill with the wildflowers that are the product of
compassionately rising to my best.
Merlin has been my most constant companion over the last
almost two decades, but he has not been my only companion. No matter what the
age or traits of our companions, they offer us opportunities for growth. Only
when we open the ears of our heart and listen to our fellow sojourners, do we find
the courage to step upon the path that leads to transformation.
On Saturday we will celebrate that most auspicious day. And,
I hope that that day will remind me to slow down, enjoy the moment, and embrace
life. For life is ever changing, effervescent, and always surprising. In this
moment and all others may I grasp my cloak of courageous, curious daring and
awaken.
Happiest Day, Merlin! 18 years of wonder and awe…and many
more!
Who has been your constant companion, teacher, and nudger on
the journey?
Peace & All Good!
Vanessa
What a lovely tribute to your son and your lives together.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Claudia
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