The sun sets in streaks of red and orange gently fading into purple. The sky darkens. The stars appear one after the other. In the inkiness of the world, I feel a shiver of fear run down my spine. Breathing in I remind myself that fear I feel has little to do with the dark and everything to do with my perception of what creeps in the blurring shadows.
Resolute, step by step, I journey deeper into the shadows. One realization has me stepping further into the shadows. That inner knowing? I am the light. I need no external light to guide me down the path of the unknown. For when I trust myself, I am led by even the tiniest glow shining from the core of my being.
When the darkness casts shadows that flicker in confusion, I breathe in courage and exhale curious daring. With warrior energy I become the guide of my life. No, I do not come out with a mighty sword ready to slay my perceived enemies. I am a warrior of peace and compassion vowing to spend time in the silence to gain objectivity.
Objective perspective is my weapon of choice. And, I use it to befriend the wounded parts of myself that clang in resonance to the shadows. This is not a calming resonance but a dissonant wake up call. Louder and louder it becomes until I can no longer ignore it. I step closer to that which I fear — my imperfections and illusions — hoping to resolve the discord.
Instead of allowing the illusion of who I am not really to overwhelm me, I grow in my light. My light shines brightly on my imperfections. It shines with my truth. With the light of my truth, I make allies of each illusion, each shadow, each imperfection that is me — until it is not.
Once allied, I no longer fight against who I am not — who I can never be. I listen and learn from each illusion, each shadow, each imperfection. Each conversation ends in gratitude for those parts that are not me. Each of them challenge me to discover who I really am. And, in this exploration become the best person that I could be.
In the learning, I recognize my compassion warriorship. I am not a warrior who fights battles and slays enemies. No, I am a warrior to befriends my flaws, acts with courage, and steps into the world with curious daring. I am a warrior not because I see the light of hope and grace, but because I am an unwavering light of grace and hope.
In this knowing lit by my light, I shed tears of transformation into a world illuminated by my light’s reflection. Will you do the same?
Vanessa F. Hurst, ms, is a Neural Synchrony™ facilitator, professional speaker, and author who weaves her inner wisdom into all she touches. Her books are A Constellation of Connections: Contemplative Relationships and Engaging Compassion Through Intent & Action. Vanessa assists clients in navigating their life paths with intuition. Contact Vanessa @ vanessa@intentandaction.com for keynotes, programs, and consultations.
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Beautiful meditation Vanessa. Thank You
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